.sorry

yesterday,sunday 20th january 2008,i broke my promise to myself
i told myself that i shall not be emo
but when certain thoughts came to my mind at that time,i couldnt take it
i felt like a loser
a fucking loser
a weak coward who isnt able to control his own emotions
i hated myself

i kept dampening people's mood
selfish bastard i am
whats wrong with me??!!

i kept saying sorry to people who are concerned about me
but yet,i kept making the same mistake
im really sorry
i really am

the events in life
which feels too heavy
too heavy for me to support
i collapsed

but i know
i will stand up again

i will