18years

being 18 isnt as easy as i thought
this year was really hectic
and i've never been through so many different emotions before
but i know theres more to come,this isnt the end.

being 18 means that parents no longer have to hide their troubles from you
you are expected to be old enough to accept the reality
reality that you parents aren't exactly happy with each other

throughout these years,
there has been many occasions,where conflict arise
walls can't seem to shut the voices,
i drowned myself in pillows,
escaping reality,
hoping tomorrow would be a better day
and that nothing happened at all

ive come to realise
thats just life
painful as it is,
its reality and that is what i have to face
i cant keep hiding from myself.

its tiring,
and i've came to a decision,
yes,i've made a decision on my own
and i'm gonna follow through
come what may






ok i feel kinda sad today
i have to admit.