maybe

sitting in the IED bus during training today
staring out the window throughout the whole journey
did some reflection on my own past
what were the things in life
that i regretted doing
thinking of whether would i be given another chance
to redeem myself
to salvage the situation
to take it all back before the worst

i wondered about who i wished to speak and sent messages to
at that very moment
but i knew its too late
things have changed
people moved on
and i'm being erased from their lives

maybe i should have apologised
maybe i should have stopped to listen
maybe i shouldn't have reacted so strongly
maybe i should do this
maybe i should do that

why think so much?

maybe..