just another day in camp

ahh~
its 9:11pm,says the computer
doing supposedly my last guard duty
(unless someone decides to pull stunts and take MC)
ain't that bad actually
just sitting in an air-conditioned room
opening gates for regulars that just dont appreciate it

sometimes i wonder why are we even cleaning up the commander's mess
aren't they old enough to wash their own utensils and clear their ash trays?
its not like we recieve our monthly pay from them..
yet we're treated like their servants.
worst of all is that we(corporal and below) are banned from using the facilities,and yet we've to clean them every single day.haha
something's obviously wrong here don't you think?
oh wells

its 1month away from my ORD date
yet i don't feel the excitement that i know im supposed to
i wonder why...
maybe because school starts next year august?

oh but i am looking forwards to doing some paintings of my own
had a chance to chat with an artist yesterday
his works are amazing,really inspiring
http://aiman-hakim.com/
suddenly had this urge to do works of my own
paintings i can be proud of :)

but for now,im still stuck in NS
my only drive i have currently is to keep exercising
to lose all that weight ive gained the past few months
i want to enter NTU next year,looking good
i want to celebrate my 21st birthday,looking good
i want to take photos,looking good

maybe its me seeing too many good looking people
that it makes me feel that if i just worked hard enough
i should be able to look just as handsome.

and holding on to that little hope of mine
i shall work towards it!
i can't afford to give up
i won't!