monday 31 march

Today's weather so hot.
was sweating like mad
plus miss hew was sick,so she didnt came to school,so the art room was locked!
thus i had to carry a whole bag of acrylic paint and my art file.
which both weighed bloody heavy

i screwed up my urban geography

then during art practical,i continued with the painting of ben i started yesterday
after 2~3 hours,i only managed to complete the neck area.
lol

at around 6:20pm
everyone left the art room already.
so i pack up,and left for home
then at the bus stop,i saw ben.lmao what a coincidence.
so went back together
was chatting with him on e bus.
then when i stopped,he immeadiately dozed off
lmao.he said he sleeps easily on moving vehicles.and yeah he sure proved his point.hahaha

bought chicken rice from bedok hawker centre before heading home
yep.thats it for today.

hope tmr weather nt so hot.

Sunday :D

hahaha,987FM radio station sent me a letter,telling me to go to andrew road the mediacorp station there to claim the gift pack

HOW TO GET THERE??! does anyone noes how?
hahaha i suck when it comes to finding places

aniw,i was suprised that i didnt gain weight from yesterday's BBQ food
in fact i lost weight.
must be due to the sports carnival in the morning.lmao

and,they spelt my name as Lai Yah Khuan
i read out my name to her can...lol RAWR

aniw went for tuition at 11am,ended at 1pm

then from 2:20pm all the way till 9:30 pm
i was busy painting ben's face
lmao
when i started,i screwed it up big time
the colours were so yucky,cos i painted on a orange based paper
then i said: God please make this work!!
then it sort of came to me
and i manage to paint it out!
IM EFFING HAPPY WITH THE RESULTS.
can't show u guys though.
cos its my Alvl stuff.
yea

hahha,kae,its just the head.but its the hardest part of any painting kae.
i feel so accomplished! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH

sports carnival waste a complete waste of my time.
sucked la.

going sarah's chalet later on

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH CHOO JING!

friday,28march

ART theory paper is over
yep,it wasnt that bad,at least i managed to crap out some shit
our paper oficially marks the end of block test as it is the LAST paper
k its over and im not gonna talk abt it

anyway,had lunch with sarah,yixiu and xianmin at the nearby food court
then after that,went back to art room to try out pastel drawing
and i realised that i sucked at it
thus i signed out a whole set of pastels,to try it out at home
i dont believe i can't do it
rawr!

aniw,met ben after that in the lib,
the librarians close the library very zhun zhun (accurate)
so yea,we left and took bus back
had our dinner at bedok hawker centre
i ordered like a HALF chicken k,
and he ordered nasi lemak
luckily he got help me finish some of the chicken,
otherwise ah..
anyway,he ordered sugar cane with lemon,he say nice but i nvr try b4

yea,and also,im glad that i cleared several misunderstandings =D
today has been smooth sailing
yea,and tmr is sports carnival,
must wake up early...sian kae

I feel like what you are doing is all because you were obliged to do.
you've changed,and i feel like i don't know who you are anymore
i miss the old you,i really do..

I've always been dreaming of a different ending,but i know it will always remain
a dream

thursday...pfft

using school's com to type this post
actually its the com in the art room
quite old com model
wah the school internet block this block that
but still,im smart enough to figure a way through it
blogger also block - -

anyway
tmr last paper
i know all the other J2s ended their block test ler
but haix.
this is what u get for taking the arts stream
and ART subject

btw.to all who dunno the subject of ART
its NOT easy at all
there is THEORY to art
and its worse than literature and history combined
so,my point is that it is fucking hard
and no body scores an A in art theory
N-O-B-O-D-Y
a pass is already a miracle
anyways

gotta go back to mugging
cya and God bless

wednesday 26th march

went to sun tann at tampines swimming complex
the sun came out for awhile
but it was decieving
from dunno where
huge clumps of dark clouds came hovering above me
bah..

lucky i went there quite early
so managed to get some sun.

gonna go back to studying for SOVA (study of visual arts)

heehee
happy day :D





Pfft does anyone have photoshop??
i really need to edit my photos.

tuesday 25th march

went to sch to mug for art.
from school library move to art room
stopped at around 5 plus
then went back home

very stressed out by many many stuff going around right now
but i must learn to focus
kae.focus

when im stressed,every small thing that im upset about will be magnified.
thus i will become very emo.sorry if ive affected you in any way.
yea sorry.

aniw,xianmin noticed i changed hairstyle.
and she say i look better
im very happy
hahahaha

went jogging.
i hate smokers who puff so much smoke in my face as i run past.
i ended up inhaling every carbon particle that they emitted.
wow.haha
but jogging is therapeutic
calms my nerves
so i wont think so much
hahaha
wth.

play this video,turn up ur speakers,or use a headset.then close ur eyes
its so amazing.i saw this from rcs blog post.want to share with u guys


cya and cheers
oh and to ben,get well soon!

i am easily forgotten.

24march

happy birthday thaddeus cheong
ure 18 now =)

sunday

sunday,23march
went to help out at dad's stall
was feeling very emo already
and the customers just made it worse
yet i had to wear this stupid fake smile
throughout the whole time

i feel unwanted
feel like a piece of trash
thrown aside
left behind
and
forgotten
yet,
still waiting
and hoping
for a different ending

Saturday,22march

22nd march,happy birthday kenneth

Saturday
It's a beautiful day
we all gathered at 8:30am at the monorail
then we made our way
to Sentosa


huisin wore mirrors.
so helen and i took a pic


xuanxuan was in love with this caucasian boy
kept shaking his hand.until the other girls had to pull her away



this is Benjamin who got sick while planning for the entire event.


edwin and xuanxuan are taller than jonathan.
im serious.



for the volleyball games i have very little photos with me
cos i was using benjamin's super pro camera
i will pose the photos when he finds his camera transfer thingy
yea...when he finds it... :)

we ate at the auditorium,it was breezy there

then it began to rain,so we went back into the mall
we were about to go home,but then suddenly they wanted to go Ben & Jerry's
so we made our way back up again
we kept making jokes about how compatible weiqian and jonathan were
and we made a hell lot of noise
people around us got annoyed,but who cares


even at the train ride from harbour front to outram park,we were still making fun of them.haha who noes,they might really be together someday.or they already are

i want to apologise to all my friends for being so emo today
and i thank you for your concern
i just couldnt force a smile out for you guys
im really sorry
im just so tired.

i walked home from pasir ris mrt
the ground was wet.
the weather was cold
i cried while walking back home
i dont think anyone would have seen me
i don't know why i cried.
i just hated myself

it was cold,
cold to be forgotten

i see how people are so disciplined with their lives.
they seem to have complete control over their emotions
i wanna be like them
such that temptations can be conquered.
the temptation to escape reality

saw edric at sentosa today.damn cool la the way he play volleyball.so professional :D
and he said i needed to get a tann.


i abit not in the mood to blog,cos my dinner waiting for me.so yea.let the pictures do the talking
meet xuanxuan,helen,and huisin









i need to work harder.

digging up the past

HAHA.dug out some childhood photos!
:D

im the one right in the centre holding the soft toy.
yep.now go "awwwww"



kae.if you are wondering.
why is yao khuan so paranoid about being fat.
let me tell u why
this was me during secondary 3.
MONSTER LAH,81KG FAT FUCK

then this is me today,wearing the exact same shirt.

now you know why am so fcking paranoid ?

yes i know everyone is Beautiful
but not everyone is Desired

aniw,went jogging today at 7am plus
so many auntie uncle at pasir ris park
hahaha
and it was damn cold!

going out study
then meet ben and friends
its Good Friday today :D

Thursday.

went sch in the morning,cos miss hew going thru art essay
then after that,i stayed in the art room to mug for art theory test
until later in the afternoon
went out to bugis with Ben to catch Step Up 2
kae.the storyline is quite cheesy
but the dance moves were fcking cool.
went to Fish&Co with him for dinner
chatted for quite some time,cos they took so long to deliver the food

but it was worth the wait,cos the food was nice :D
ben was saying that taking handphone photos was bimbotic
lol,we retook so many times until it really felt bimbotic

took MRT back after tt
thanks ben :)


thats for today.its now 10:20pm.i gained weight sia.
die la.
must watch what i eat now!

Wednesday

hmm.
today was kinda busy
woke up.
recieved a call from mummy
i had to go to the stall to help out
cos short of workers.
there goes my wednesday
hahaha,im filial okay...

anyways.
i asked my mom,she said i looked fatter,
thus i went jogging the moment i came back home.
haha

tmr have to go school ,teacher going thru art essay.
and my art THEORY test is next friday!
we are the last group of students
to finish block test
great isnt it..cb


:D
cya and cheers!
oh and btw,
hope you like my new blogskin
i spent long time transfering all the data and links kae.

98.7FM

kae.today's paper sucked.
end of story.




aniw,was at sch library...listening to 98.7FM
they had this scramble game..the prize was sara bareilles gift pack.
and i liked her song,which is kinda obvious>>

they gave the alphabets,and u have to guess the artist/band name
so Desiree said " A,N,E,E,E,L,L,I,D,B

so i copied it down
then i was so bored.
so i went to solve it
i wrote B,E,...then i thought...the only name that could have so many vowels was BELINDA..
so i cancelled out all the letters.and was left with E,L,E
and using common sense,it spells LEE
so i text in to 98.7FM ,BELINDA LEE
she hasnt even gave the second clue,which was "local artist"
so i continued with my studying


then...arnd 7 minutes later
someone called my HP
i picked up
and ya,it was her from the studio
she told me i won the sara bareilles gift pack


lmao.
what a funny experience.

monday,17th march ,chocolate list :D

i know what i want,im not getting it
and that makes me sad
simple as that



aniw,happy birthday ZIMU,happy birthday EDRIC
and whoever i missed out
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.



i just finished one whole bar of chocolate.
cos i was feeling sad.
now i feel much better

btw
tell me what is your personal favourite choice of chocolate kae?
im really interested to noe :D
i noe its random, but i like

CHOCOLATE list :D
Name: type of Chocolate he/she ♥
Nicole : DARK CHOCS! BETTER BE BITTER 80% AND ABOVE! :p
Benjamin : Snickers original
yao khuan : ritter sport-rum and raisins
sarah choo : green tea chocolate,bitter chocolate from ROYCE
lee yen : kinder bueno
cheryl chihuahua : Mars bars
edric : Emo: Milk chocolate, Happy: Orange Chocolate, Chatty: Dark chocolate, Hungry: White Chocolates

:(

Yao khuan is a really really sad boy today
and theres a reason why
which i won't be telling you
nope
not today,
not today..

rarh

Tuition in da morning....
3 hours!
9am till 12noon

must finish up revision
tmr is exams.
block test
woots
rarh
too blessed to be stressed

i shall put this fake smile on my face even when im crying inside
cos at least i know that others won't be sad cos of me

k i gotta admit.
im so fcking stressed right now
so please don't ask me why i look so sad when u see me kae.
i will be alright
just these two days
monday and tuesday.
kae...

dont even look at me.
cos i will just spoil ur mood
:)