Tuesday, October 30, 2007

anti drug

AEP have to join this anti drug art competition..

was too lazy to go take new photos

so i re used one of my PW photo and came up with this.

took 3 hours to just draw it out, and 6 hours to paint..

still working on it.need refinement.

Monday, October 29, 2007

come what may

It doesnt matter if you don't understand what im saying.
but i just wanted to share this post with someone,
someone who would listen

my life of JC1 in NYJC has been hectic, confusing and ever changing.

through these times, i have met new friends, learnt new experiences.
some of them were much more painful than i thought.
but it is through these painful experiences where i learnt that life isn't as perfect as i thought.

when i first came into my new class of 0728,i was still reading through the name list posted on the notice board. and when i found out my whole class had 24 girls while theres only me and another guy,i was dumbfounded. afterall,being in an all boys school for 10 years, now its like a girl's school.

even still, i've learnt to adapt to it.

just when i thought i had everything going smoothly, another incident happened, which was the passing away of a friend, even though we werent that close, but somehow his death seems to have brought everyone closer together.

it took me some time to move on with life.

then again, when i heard that an ex art teacher which i didnt know well pass away a few weeks after his, i realized that i was already numbed to those feelings.

during these times, it was hard. as it was also when i realised that i was one step too late to being with the one i liked. I felt that she was the only one who was able to understand me, and i really enjoyed the times when we were together.

i know i still have to face it.

the first cut is the deepest as they would say. and yes i agree.
but as the wound heals, i know i will pull through.

yes,i have many regrets, i wished i could turn back time, to salvage the things that i've done and words that ive spoken. its impossible though.

I felt that the first year of my JC life has been the most dramatic shift in my life.it was the toughest one, yet.

Some of my classmates are not intending to stay in JC. and i would like to wish them all the best in whichever path they choose.

i wonder what is going to happen in the near future.
even still,
come what may

Sunday, October 28, 2007


im so sleepy...tmr got chinese A lvl..hand in I&R...do art poster...OP presentation..omg..and i almost lost my entry proof..luckily i found it..
thank you Lord.

and thanks edric for helping me COUNT the number of words in my I&R cos my com just reformat and doesnt have microsoft word. THANKS.

and also samantha for reminding me to bring entry proof.almost forgot.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

JC life

result slip

wtf,45 for art. first in my life .

AEP students went to temasek JC today.viewed their art exhibition. ya, quite impressive. no mood.

tmr still need to go HCI and NJC.

give me a break la.

Sunday, October 21, 2007


was playing a few games of dota with some online friends.happen to met some new people.
and i thought,
yeah,they're cool.

but i happen to have made a mistake,causing him to "die"..
yeah..and he flared up..i know it was my fault.

im sorry,but if friendship is determind upon how well u play in a game,i rather nt make friends.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Happy birthday mum :D

heh,oct 19 was my mother's birthday.
went out to buy her flowers and cake.
well,my sis told me to buy a strawberry cake,which was very red,had cream on top and..ya..
so this was what i bought.
it fits the description she gave me but it wasnt the right one.
well it was nt bad anyways.


i made my mom a paper rose..yea..

today,went to tampines to swim.ok..i cant swim..practice swimming
so ya.
went there
practice and practice until got so tired...
so decided to get a tan.
i actually fell asleep while tanning,but it was just for 15mins..haha

there was this guy,who kept pretending to read a newspaper,but kept staring at me..
then whenever i sat up to apply sun tan oil,he would put his newspaper aside and just LOOK at me. what the?

then when everyone left,he still stay there,until when i left,i entered the changing room,then he came in.
and whats worse..he went to strip totally naked and kept standing like 2~3m away from me..i kept looking down but dunno why he just kept facing me..
i faster packed my stuff and went out of the swimming complex.lol


haha.tann until become liddat..

i feel like a crab..

Thursday, October 18, 2007

go away la

hey,you probably won't know who im talking about.

that one person.i just want to tell you,to get a life,and stop interferring with mine. i don't need your concern,and neither do i need you to tell me what i should do.

if you are so free,go find someone else to bother,im not going to entertain you.
you are such a annoying little bitch :)

Sunday, October 14, 2007


woke up at 5am,couldnt sleep.
so i decided to do my project work early.
i went to take a bath,then headed to the com.
when i was searching with the web,my mom woke up,the first thing she did was to scold me for not turning off the living room lights.i told her that my bro turned it on,and she still scold me.wth

then i was searching for images on the com and my page was at www.google.com
she walked into the room,pretended to look for smth,took my brother's clothes and took it out of the room to ask my maid to wash.
hey mom,what the hell u think i am,i fool? obviously u think im playing right? dammit

whats more,abt a few minutes after that,i caught her peeping through the door trying to see what i was doing.

you don't even trust ur own fcking son?!
if your own mother don't even trust you that you are doing your work,what can i expect from anyone else?

and she still come and scold me why i see her come into the room i so nervous
hey,all i did was to look at you seeing what you wanted to say to me and you had to scold me?

i am really bloody stressed now and the LEAST you could have done was to show some parental support,and not accuse me of things i've not done

its not that i don't love my mom,its just these things she does that constantly makes me doubt anyone trust me anymore.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

die? or die?

my results are out..

H2 math : 38/100 (when i actually have tuition...)
H2 geog : 53/100
H2 Art : 42/100
H1 econs : 58/100
H1 GP : 55/100
H1 chin : 51/100

crap la...
i still havent met the criteria of two H2 and one H1 passes la...
wth man..


and which idiot suggested having Open House on the same day as results..

nw have to wait for overall marks..I CANNOT AFFORD TO RETAIN LA.

Thursday, October 11, 2007


Went to cineleisure with ben and nicole.
played two rounds of pool
then we took a walk around suntec,esplanade,clarke quay

i really thank them for that,thank them for bringing me out of this shell
i've been hiding in throught my life.for letting me know:
"Hey there ARE people who cares"

i know i was suppose to be happy
but my mind just refused to smile

as friday we will be the results for promotional exams.
i know people say "whats done is done"
but a sudden fear came to me
"what if i don't make it through,how would my parents feel? my brother,my sister did not do so well for their exams.now it all comes to me."

my parents aren't young anymore,how long will they be able to sustain?
i've seen signs,telling me that time is running out.

people told me: "don't think too much"
but there are things which i just can't.

please let it stop

don't worry,this isn't a suicide note
im just really tired.

Monday, October 8, 2007

NYJC open house.

NYJC open house 12 oct

2pm onwards i think.

must come

or else
may u get soaking wet by a car driving past


come u moron.

yes you.

the one reading this.

don't look around,its you

this friday


stop looking around u moron.

i said its you.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

The End

exams finally over.

but,AEP never ends.

1: NYJC open house
2: japan trip presentation
3: anti drug poster competition

4:Project work
5:h1 chinese A'lvl

haha.but that aint gonna stop me from having fun. =D

but there is something which is


Wednesday, October 3, 2007


woke up at 10.30am..
planned to wake up at 6am.
but i slept at 5am.

so didn't go according to plan. dammit.

today's wed..
left thursday and friday then no more exams..haix...rushing out paintings like mad
stayed in sch from 1pm till 7pm..painting...and all i did was these two..AHHH TOO SLOW!!!



today afternoon was art theory test (yes,art aint at easy)

had SECTION A (choose 1) SECTION B(choose 1) and SECTION C (compulsory)
a total of 9 essay questions,each worth 10 marks.to be done in 3hours.

what was my reaction? go figure

started painted this from like ,8.30pm?

until now which is around 4 am.
that long.

i havent eaten or slept.
i went to look at the mirror,my face was pale white.and it still is as i type.

the painted parts will be cropped out,so don't bother about those ugly outlines.
for now.need to rest.


Tuesday, October 2, 2007


im going nuts. LALALALALALALA
exams shall end this FRIDAY.
mark this very day on your calenders people.
for this very day

the world
shall change
like never before!!!
...okay at least mine will..

Monday, October 1, 2007



An Indian discovered that nobody can create a FOLDER anywhere on the computer which can be named as 'CON'. This is something pretty cool...and unbelievable... At Microsoft the whole Team, couldn't answer why this happened!


For those of you using Windows, do the following:
1.) Open an empty notepad file 2.) Type 'Bush hid the facts' (without the quotes) 3.) Save it as whatever you want. 4.) Close it, and re-open it.
Is it just a really weird bug? :-??


This is something pretty and neat....and unbelievable... At Microsoft the whole Team, including Bill Gates, couldn't answer why this happened!It was discovered by a Brazilian. Try it out yourself...
Open Microsoft Word and type =rand (200, 99)
And then press ENTER Then see the magic.............................

i got this from http://www.i-fell-down.blogspot.com/ .found it really interesting..WELL TO ME IT WAS.

try it