phu phu phu ket!

woots,going phuket tmr morning :D
be back on monday night :)
hope everything goes smoothly!
gonna take lotsa nice pictures there!!

was working on a portrait yesterday
a gift for my friend :)

rendering the folds of the shirt
is really killing me.
the face was so much easier to draw.
haha

aniw
gonna draw lots more
oh and i still owe lotsa people drawings
that i kinda promised them to
deadlines!!
hahahaha




PHUKET HERE I COME!!

please don't go...

felt so sad this afternoon
as i was in my bunk,
the thought of the november ORD batch people,
are just a few weeks away from leaving already
..
just yesterday,
while helping out my friend with some paperwork
i opened up his locker..
and it was so empty..
almost everything was brought home already
and my heart just sank
..
im gonna miss them so much...
george,joel pang,junbin...
i just can't bear to say goodbye to them..
i felt like ive just got to know them
and would really wish they'd be around longer..

do hope to see them even after ORD
and i hope they'd remember me too..

:(

sigh..
with hope comes disappointment.

Photoshoot: George

Did a photoshoot with George today
i must say,
it started off with alot of problems
as my camera and i arent working well together
but after a LONG while
i finally got the lightings and camera settings right
:D
haha
its so hard to take shots in the dark..
a little bit of movement and the picture is blurred.
geesh!

George is my bunkmate,
hes a golfer!
and really REALLY nice guy
super helpful and never seems to get tired of doing work
when you get to know him better,
u'd feel like,
woah this guy is so knowledgeable!
should learn from him :)

"Haha it was a weird and interesting experience!"
-george

beee zeee

photoshoot(with george) on monday 11oct!!
phuket on saturday 16oct!!
then photoshoot(with anthea and vincent)on tuesday19oct!!
plus its my mom's birthday on 19thoct!!
OH MY GOODNESS
SO MANY THINGS TO DO.
HAHAHA WEEEEEE

people

there are people that i can't wait to get away from.
there are people who hates me
there are people who loves me
there are people who i just wanna give a great big hug before i say goodbye.
there are people who id love to delete off my facebook page.
there are people who i wanna keep in touch with.
there are people i wished ive never met.
there are people who i wanna say "F**K YOU!" to
there are people who are just there for the sake of being there.
there are people whom id like to know better.
there are people who i don't even know why they exist
there are people who i would definitely not forget.
there are people that id probably just forget about.
there are people that id love to kick them in the face.
there are people who id like to apologise to
there are people who are just such hypocrites
there are people who are obsessed with power
there are people who are overflowing with ego
there are people who needs education badly
there are people who are just too lazy
there are people who are insanely hardworking
there are peope who i admire
there are people who i love having around
there are people whom im lucky to be with
there are people who borrows my stuff like free
there are people who are just idiots.
there are people who thinks im an idiot
there are people who i dont even know
there are peope who thinks they're smart
there are people who are extremly useless
there are people who are extremely immature
there are people who doesn't appreciate the things i did
there are people who should be shot dead and fed to the sharks
there are people who i think are just gonna fail in life.
there are people who i know id meet in the future
there are people who made my life interesting
there are people who filled my days with laughter
there are people who will never change
there are people who i wont even bother writing about
there are people who still owes me money
there are people who im eternally grateful for
there are people who totally changed my life

there are people,all sorts of them
in this 2 years of NS,
which is nearing to an end.
but nevertheless,
without these people,
i wouldn't be who i am today.

Mrs Lee Kuan Yew,Mother of Singapore

• Mrs Lee Kuan Yew (1920 - 2010)

SINGAPORE: Madam Kwa Geok Choo, the wife of Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew and mother of Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong, has died.

Mrs Lee Kuan Yew, aged 89, passed away peacefully at home at 5.40 pm on Saturday.

A statement from the Prime Minister's Office said the wake will be held at Sri Temasek, official residence of the Prime Minister located within the Istana grounds, from October 4-5.

Visitors who wish to pay their last respects may do so from 10am to 5pm. Members of the public may call 6835 6614 for any queries.

A private funeral will take place on October 6 at Mandai Crematorium.

The family requests that no obituaries and no wreaths or flowers to be sent.

All donations will go to the National Neuroscience Institute (NNI) Health Research Endowment Fund.

Madam Kwa was one of 8 children.

An outstanding student at Methodist Girls' School, she also topped the 1936 Senior Cambridge Examination for the whole of Malaya and Singapore.

At Raffles Institution, she caught the attention of a young Lee Kuan Yew when she gave him unexpectedly stiff competition for a Queen's Scholarship.

But academic rivalry aside, he knew he had found his equal, and his soul mate.

Their relationship grew through the years of Japanese Occupation, and by September 1944, love had blossomed.

When World War II ended, Mr Lee left to study law in England in 1946. But he was miserable until she joined him at Cambridge University a year later.

The two married secretly on 23 December 1947.


She had just turned 27, and he was 24.

Mrs Lee said: "You can't explain these things ... He had tremendous aplomb, self-confidence, very jaunty, he was a handsome young man."

When they returned to Singapore in 1950, they tied the knot again, this time with their parents' full knowledge.

When Mr Lee got more involved in politics and became Singapore's Prime Minister in 1959, it was Mrs Lee and his younger brother, Lee Kim Yew, who built up and expanded Lee & Lee - the law firm all three had set up in 1955.

Mr Lee once said his great advantage was that he had a wife who could be a sole breadwinner and bring the children up.

That was his, quote, "insurance policy," which allowed him to play the role he did in Singapore's history.

In October 2003 - Mrs Lee suffered a stroke while on a visit to London.

Fortunately, she made a swift recovery and was again seen in public at her husband's side at community events, and on official trips overseas.

And she was there when Lee Hsien Loong was sworn in as Singapore's third Prime Minister.

Although she had shied away from a high profile, her contributions to Singapore had been most significant, and pivotal to its history.



"If she weren't an influence, supposing I had married somebody else, I might have become a different person, not that I would be a different person, but the things that I would have been able to do, the kind of backdrop I would have had, family, support, would have been different,"
said MM Lee. - CNA /ls









credits:
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1084739/1/.html

36SCE family day :)

today was 36SCE's family day!
and heres some of the pictures i took!

first of all,
i would like to introduce
this little kitten that just came to our unit,
it makes lots of noise at night
and meows all the way till the dawn breaks
sometimes it makes a weird sound,
kinda like that of a toad..

but its horribly cute :D


leonard (with his oakley's sunglasses) here trying really hard to see whats on the screen

sergeant john here showing the parents our EOD equipments,
which we see EVERY single day of our 36SCE life.

staff tan in the bomb suit,taking pictures with others,haha impressive!

warrant ang and his family :)

the dog's name is ben,
it was like changing different poses as i took photos of him.

hahaha so cute!

master sergeant chan giving an introduction to the AES unit

AES giving a demonstration on their training :)



check out the 5tonners!


george with his sis and mom


my fellow pioneer drivers :D
and not forgetting the IED bus!

super old vehicle that they keep reviving,refusing to let it die and change a new one.

my unit's beloved vending machine!


and after everything..
the refreshments :)







haha on my way home
there was a bunch of birds that were so engrossed over who gets the lizard,
that they weren't even bothered by my presence.

poor lizard...






yep thats all for today :D
was on duty yesterday
super tired now
gonna catch some sleep

cya!

outcamp run

ahh...


just came back from my unit's outcamp run
which is at paris park!
lucky me
a 5minutes walk from my house hahahaha :D

it was AWESOME!!
felt so used to it,
the place i grew up in.
i was one of the first few to finish,
running together with me was george!
amazing fella

and the best part was
i totally trashed my #1 most hated commander
WOOTS!!
the only thing on my mind while i was running
was that i CANNOT and WILL NOT lose to him :)
thats all that mattered to me.


heyhey
its our unit's family day tomorrow!
gonna bring my DLSR to camp
take some pics of my unit
gonna post them up tmr
can't wait!!

who made you king of anything?

being in NS
I start to realise how ugly people can be
and not talking about their appearances
but whats beneath that mask

its everywhere all these while
its just that we didn't really feel the full impact of it
when we were still studying
but when it comes to being coerced to live and see the same people everyday
that is where the real test begins

as my ORD date nears
i find myself being rather happy
at the thought of
never seeing those individuals
who think that they are kings
and we are their slaves.
yeah sure,kings of their own shithole.

i despise them
as they deserve absolutely no respect at all.
sure we do have loads of commanders,officers and all
but how many are really leaders?

Why is it that nobody does anything despite knowing something is amiss.
Why do they continue to let incompetent people to rise through the ranks.
Why doesn't anyone stand up for justice no more?
oh wait,how could i forget,this is reality.

welcome to uniqloooooooo~

okay.
i bought a pair of black denim jeans from Uniqlo,tampines1
and sent it for alteration after paying for it..
i was SUPPOSED to collect it about after a few days or so.
the thing is...

IT COMPLETELY SLIPPED MY MIND!
and only after chatting on the phone last night
i suddenly recalled about it!

but its at least 6 MONTHS since i bought it!!
plus i think id probably lost the receipt.
FAIL!!


haha just sent an email to them
hopefully they do something about it
hahaha I FEEL SO RETARDED.



in the meantime,
check out this song ive just heard today on the radio
lush 99.5FM

Love,save the empty by Erin Mccarley







update:
ah..went down personally
its no longer there
oh wells,
lesson learnt.
:)

sour sour feeling

bahh dunno whats gotten into me
haha i get this very sour feeling
whenever i see someone thats so good looking.
like in facebook or what
not those superstars or models
but people in your everyday life
friend's friend
or someone related to you somehow or another
it just gets to me
haha

i always compare myself to them
and think:
"why are they so good looking?"
"they are sooo lucky to have so many friends asking them out all the time"
"aww how i wish i could look JUST like him"

things that keep occuring to me
haha i guess i just feel damn insecure about my looks
why i don't have cool friends like they do
why im not attractive enough
WHYYYY

I guess its all about the confidence
the way they present themselves
but thats easy for them,
with their looks and all
how not to be confident!

haha
i even considered plastic surgery!
but i've kinda scrapped that idea
considering ive not much money and stuff
and i know how they'd say
looks arent important
and that our looks will all fade away
and inner beauty is what counts
but still...

wouldnt it be nice to look like him?



aniw,just some personal thoughts im sharing
pleaseee don't shoot me with mean comments.
im quite vulnerable to those

psychotic

haha entertaining :)

We can't control what happens in life,but what we can control is whether to face them with a smile or a frown.

ahh~
today was a great day!
even though i was called back to camp
as there was a last minute detail,
i wasn't affected by it at all

i dunno why,
but i just felt happy today
and everything went smoothly.

take for example,
i realised i didn't have a cashcard with me
and upon reachig my unit,
i saw my fellow pioneer,kelvin
and asked if he had any cashcard with him
luckily he had one that he was just going to return!

When my handphone was running low on battery,
my friend with the same handphone model as mine
had left his charger in camp :D
thankfully!

When i wanted to get some paperwork done,
i couldn't find the Duty Officer to get them signed,
but just so happen that our Ops warrant came back from lunch
and he signed them
hes such a nice guy!

Thats not all,
when i went for the detail,
the place that i had to drive to
was really really ulu~
and yet i didn't lose my way!
haha thats an amazing feat! :p

best of all,
it ended real fast and soon i was on my way back to camp!
and when i got ready to book out
the dark gloomy sky cleared
and it was sunny again!

ahh~
what a nice day
i guess staying positive does help alot!
it felt like i had a guardian angel by my side :)


haha oh btw
guess what
i found the camera phone
which i misplaced
haha i always use it to camwhore
HURRAY!





We can't control what happens in life,but what we can control is whether to face them with a smile or a frown.







i choose to smile

Family Dinner @ East Coast Park

Our relatives came to Singapore as one of their honeymoon destination!
and they stayed at our place :D
its been a longggggg time since ive seen my cousin,
well i dont even have a single relative living in Singapore
they are all in different parts of the world
holland,europe,hong kong etc...

she mentioned how ive grown since the last time we met
and how i liked to pluck flowers when i was young
haha that was decades ago!!

aniw,we went to East Coast Park to have dinner together
we ordered Chilli Crab,Prawns,Cockles,Fried tofu,'Kankong',raw fish
it was such a spread!




my mom was greedily eating the coconut flesh
and the thick reddish roe of the crab,
despite my sis telling her its high in cholesterol
haha she was like "oh it is unhealthy?",
while her mouth was busy finishing it up!
so cute :D



jie,kor,ma,pa,cousin's hubby,my cousin :D




and myself


it was nice to have family dinner together like this
we rarely have the chance to sit down together and eat
and im sure my mom is the happiest
she was like commenting when she got off the car
"isnt it amazing?
such a petite woman like myself could give birth to such tall and big children!"

:D

things to do.HAVE TO DO!!

man!
was looking through artworks and photography at deviantart.com today
arghhh they are all so good at digital drawing!
im amazed :)
got to buck up myself
loads of catching up to do
and NS kinda caused me to be stagnant
need to get into the environment
the Arts!

ive got myself a tablet a few months ago
and havent touched it ever since.
Im CLUELESS as to how to even start
or maybe im just not motivated
find that ive been very lethargic lately
have things to do but kept procastinating them
you know how artists have times whereby
they've absolutely no inspiration or mood to even lift the pencil?
yeah thats exactly how i felt!

ahh...
im like reading this guide book about my camera,Nikon D90
have to brush up my technical skills in photography
the thing is,i'm interested in portraits
but i just don't want to attend courses and such
as i feel the technical part of photography would just kill my passion for it
just like how i refused to take art lessons when i was young
the way they would input whats the 'correct' way to drawing
it might have just hindered the upcoming of a great artist
or someone who is capable of much much more!
as einstein once said,
"The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education."

its rather frustrating with things going on in camp
last minute notices and with people refusing to cooperate
being extremely selfish and not considering the plight of others
they're everywhere in life
I've got to learn to accept this fact

here are a few things ive yet do to
#1 confirm the dates with the two models for photoshoot
#2 sketches for the photoshoot
#3 experimentation on the props im gonna use
#4 get a life

I know this blogpost is really disorganised
just wanted to pen down all my thoughts before i head off to bed
haha

cya!
cheers

Art Materials!

went over to bugis to get some art materials for the upcoming photoshoot in october!
got myself a whole bottle of black paint

wanted to get some other things but Nuh kept telling me to make it myself
for example..there were these styrofoam shaped into balls and cubes
which i was thinking of using as props for the photoshoot
but he insisted that i can improvise
well ive got to agree,
each one of those styrofoam actually cost $1.50 and above!
could save some money if i were to DIY
plus im gonna dip them in paint anyway
hahaha

we then went on down to harbour front's DAISO to check out what we can find
haha loads of random stuff sold there
and every item cost $2 each
we ended up getting this cat shaped hole-puncher?

well it works the same way as your hole-puncher
just that it creates this adorable cat figure

theres other shapes too
a dog,a star,a leaf etc
haha being a cat lover,
we both got one each
havent really figure out what to do with it
but it might come in handy when making cards and gifts

oh yeah and i bought a pair of hand warmer and a neck warmer
which i intend to let the model wear for the shoot
haha

its meant for girls,
so it was really tight!!
ah can't wait for the photoshoot!
12th october!


oh btw
im loving this beef & chicken set meal
that is sold at Elias Mall,
the hawker centre in my neighbourhood.
i really like it alot :D
it cost $5.50 btw

nice!

koookies!!

my friend,Nuh,gave me some of the cookies he made for hari raya
:D hahaha im gonna finish them even though ive only JUST recovered from sore throat.
nom nom nom nom

Pasir ris park.FAILED.

wanted to go to pasir ris park to take some pictures
the weather was cooling as it was raining previously
it all went well till...
the mosquitoes came attacking me like mad.
each time i stopped and took a photo,
i would then look at my legs,
and there would definitely be at least one mosquito
happily feasting!
it got so annoying that i turned around and headed back home



if only they didnt have to spit a secretion into our blood that makes me itch
i would've graciously let them suck my blood dry.
and im proud to say that ive killed every single one of them that landed on me
not one spared.muahahaha

aniways,
i only managed to take a few shots






maybe next time
with insect repellent.

a trip to the MO

waited 2 hours,
2 whole hours under the merciless icy breath of the air conditioning unit in Selerang medical centre...
where other NSF that came after me went in for consultation
i was left there awaiting for my precious time with
THE Medical Officer
finally my turn was up
went in,sat down
explained my illness to him
he examined and this was what he told me

"theres no sign of sore throat,
the sore will go away on its own
just dont go touch it or irritate it
and about your toothache,
you could head on upstairs to the dental centre cause im not a dentist.
dont need a referal letter.
erm wait outside as i prescribe you some lozenges."

Wow?
geesh,its not the first time ive got sore throat
and its quite obvious why he couldnt see it
CAUSE its so deep down

waited two whole hours under the freezing cold just for that kinda prescription?
what the f**k?
and not to mention that
BLOODY little corporal who thinks hes some kinda big shot
slamming things here and there,wtf
trying to show attitiude is that it?
no sense of urgency in those motherf**kers.

SAF medical centres..
whats the point of renovating their facilities
when its the same old people inside.
when is someone going to do something about it
those poor NSF that have genuine cases
and yet they have to put up with such situation
they deserve better than that

caring?commitment?
what a facade.









laughter is the best medicine.
uve got to watch this.LOL

i think shes so adorable!



after which,check this out!
:)





aniways!
if you're feeling the coming of a major sore throat
do try robitussin lozenges
it looks similar to strepsils
but its rather useful
for me at least.
helped big time